(a more personal note – a more intimate nature)
Well, I haven’t posted since January of this year. I guess I just got bogged down in other things and also maybe didn’t feel like posting rebuttals to the usual garbage that goes on here in the metro area I live in. But my silence is broken today. I just felt the need to express a little bit after watching some YouTube clips.
You know how when you hear something over and over again you start to take it in and make it personal. Well… for some reason the last several months the song ‘Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus’ has been rolling through my head. I don’t know why, but I just can’t seem to shake it (not that it’s a bad thing really). Every time I sit down at the piano that’s the first thing I think of and so I start playing it immediately. When I’m driving down the road in silence the lyrics seem to float into my brain like clouds and push out my other ‘more pressing’ thoughts.
So today I spent some time listening to YouTube clips of people singing the song. I must have listened to the song sung 30 different times by just as many people, each one putting their own spin on the melody. Along with the usual thoughts “Wow these people can really sing!”, and the subsequent insecurities of “What am I thinking even trying to pursue music after listening to these guys?”, something happened as I listened. I shut my browser window and just sat there a minute to let the words and music just sink in.
Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus. Just to take Him at his Word. Just to rest upon His promise. Just to know “Thus saith the Lord”. Jesus, Jesus, how I trust You. How I’ve proved you over and over. Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus… Oh for grace to trust You more.
How many times have I said (usually privately) “God, I KNOW you didn’t bring me this far in life just to let me go. I know you will come through for me this time.” When I look back on my life I see so many times that I should have been completely sunk. Broken, paralyzed, bankrupt, overwhelmed, cast down, crushed, defeated, jobless, homeless, friendless, etc. But something always happened just at the right time. Something unexpected, something miraculous. Some series of events came together to save the day. That’s what trust is… looking back and seeing the consistency of the hand of God then looking forward and knowing the same will be true for the future.
They say that trust is earned. And I think that’s exactly the point of this song. “How I’ve proved You over and over”.
I have now been overwhelmed with the sense of His bigness compared to my smallness. (I guess that’s the core definition of humility, isn’t it?) Somehow the world doesn’t seem like such a meaningless place. Somehow the future doesn’t seem so scary. Somehow I think things are going to turn out OK (even if the country does collapse in economic ruin). To be in the hand of God is the only safe place to be. “Oh for grace to trust You more.”
Blessings to you all.
Thanks for letting me write what is stylistically and topically somewhat out of characteristic for me.
sending...